I'm not sure where this blog will go but I feel I need to share this experience. I'm one of those people that have always struggled with feeling they are worthy of love, self-love and kindness. But I'm not one of those people that has had some overly traumatic circumstance or experience that has caused feelings of inadequacy. I have had love around me while growing up and as an adult. I have a successful career. I have two healthy, happy and amazing sons. I'm a nice person and work hard. I give back and help where I can.
However at the back of my mind there is always self-doubt and a feeling that I'm not good enough. I've felt like this for as long as I can remember. Logically I see how incorrect these feelings are but emotionally, I have not been able to shake it. I believe this underlying lack of self-love is holding me back. It's stopped me from taking care of myself and as a result I'm overweight. It's stopped me from real intimacy in personal relationships and that contributed to my marriage falling apart.
It's time to work through what's at the root of this and become the best person I can be. I want my boys to see a mother that loves herself and them unconditionally. A woman that has self-worth and confidence. A role model for how they should behave and treat themselves.
I am terrified. I don't know what I'm going to unearth in this project. I'd like to say I'm a little excited but I'm not. I'm hopeful though. I feel strongly that this is what I have to do and when I have to do it.
Well, here goes everything....
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